Another Life

Sometimes, I feel as though I am sitting on my hands and have gaffer taped my mouth.

Despite getting back into the mileau of London life, I have been feeling there is a different one calling. I have been feeling this for quite some time. Having ideas is not enough. Having opinions is not enough. We can be all talk and no action and it is mostly action that counts. It is not simply what I think, it is part of me. making films or art is a part of me, it is simply what I do and to make a living doing it is good. Dipping my feet working with NGO's isn't enough and I want to do more. It is a part of me that will never go away and it is something that is in the belly. I do not want a life where all I did was shoot music videos and commercais and maybe some feature films. There is more to life than this and I have only felt it when working on projects with people in poverty and who live under different and difficult circumstances. There is a global context for this and a calling for people to help each other. As Arundhati Roy said, 'live while you are alive and die only when you are dead'.

I no longer want to be sitting on my hands, my mouth gaffer tapped and, I do not want to feel dead before I am .

- J